The Art of Dying

The Art of Dying

Worship Thyself

It’s my birthday today so indulge me to offer three bits of unsolicited, 37-year-old wisdom:

1. The only person or thing worthy of worship is yourself.

2. You are a whole person and you don’t need any one or any thing to complete you.

3. No one has all the answers. Anyone or any thing, such as a book or a group, which claims to have the answers is deceiving you, and probably trying to suppress you. Run the other way. 

8 Years On

Today, January 12, 2020, is the 8th anniversary of my arrival in the UK. I’ve reflected on and tried to write about this anniversary every year. (In 2017, I wrote a little essay, which I’m still proud of, with an accompanying still-awesome playlist. Scroll down or find it here.) Some of my friends will know that the number 8 is meaningful for me, so I am compelled to reflect and write a little more today than in previous years. 

I spent this afternoon doing two quintessentially British activities: seeing the William Blake exhibition at the Tate Britain museum, followed by a Sunday roast lunch. The former is significant because I learned that William Blake was born in London in 1757 and spent most of his life in the city. He wrote that only in London could he pursue his “visionary studies… see visions, dream dreams… and speak parables unobserv’d.” Same goes for me, good sir. 

It’s interesting to reflect on the person I was when I arrived in 2012, relatively ‘bright-eyed and bushy-tailed,’ no idea or plan for what the future held. In these eight years, I’ve faced challenges head-on, had innumerable experiences of all varieties and qualities, and carved out an unprecedented adult life for myself. In conversations with people about my chosen home, particularly when I’m back visting Canada, I’m quick to highlight the many confounding and contrasting aspects of life in the UK. It’s something I am reminded of every day: I’m a foreigner, in a truly foreign land, and it’s strange and surprising; ultimately, I am privileged to be here. It’s astounding that I’ve lasted this long, and now I don’t intend to leave. As I wrote in 2017, living in London is the single greatest achievement of my life. 

In the spirit of reflection and celebration, today I want to highlight the singular thing that makes London my home and a place of great happiness: my friendships. From my mother, I learned the importance of surrounding yourself with lots of amazing people – and celebrating them often and enthusiastically. From my father, I learned that every person you meet has the potential to teach you something about yourself and the world. I think those lessons from my parents are reflected in the people I’ve befriended over the past eight years. My London friendship circle has expanded steadily with each year and is full of fascinating, diverse, dynamic and inspiring people. 

One of the best friends I made in high school, Nick Poisson, visited London this past summer and remarked how proud he is of what I’ve accomplished here and the high calibre of people I’m surrounded by. I knew this already, of course, but it was refreshing to have it reflected back at me by someone I’ve known for twenty years. Just as William Blake thought over two-hundred years ago, London is the best place for me to pursue my goals, dream my dreams and become the truest version of myself. But none of it would mean anything, let alone be possible, without my friends.

Thank you to my many friends in London who have supported me, strengthened me, and positively contributed to the person I am today, the 12th of January 2020 (UK-format!)

The only way is forward and the only direction is up, dear friends!

Much love,
Josh

21 Best Songs of the 2010s

Without fail, every January I’m still listening and compiling my favourite songs and albums of the past year. There’s always so much music to hear and I’m forever, joyfully playing catch up. This year, I have struggled to identify 10 list-worthy tracks. I heard LOTS of amazing music in 2019 but it was more album-oriented – plus I explored lots of new genres – so it was harder to highlight individual tracks. By far my favourite album of 2019 – and my best music discovery in years – was Trust in the Lifeforce of the Deep Mystery by The Comet is Coming (see previous post). Go check them out if you like aggressive, psychedelic jazz!

Instead, in keeping with my love of list-making and inspired by my musical godfather (and cousin) Dann, here are the 21 best songs of the 2010s, in a somewhat particular order:

1. “Shake It Out” – Florence + The Machine
2. “Sprawl II (Mountains Beyond Mountains)” – Arcade Fire
3. “Hunger Of The Pine” – alt-J
4. “Dance Yrself Clean” – LCD Soundsystem
5. “Oblivion” – Grimes
6. “Odessa” – Caribou
7. “Midnight” – Coldplay
8. “Man of War” – Radiohead
9. “The House That Heaven Built” – Japandroids
10. “Rolling in the Deep” – Adele
11. “Wait” – M83
12. “Everlasting Light” – The Black Keys
13. “The Mother We Share” – CHVRCHES
14. “Terrible Love (Alternate Version)” – The National
15. “bad guy” – Billie Eilish
16. “Can’t Get It Out” – Brand New
17. “Take Me To Church” – Hozier
18. “Sweetest Kill” – Broken Social Scene
19. “Feet Don’t Fail Me” – Queens of the Stone Age
20. “Art Of Almost” – Wilco
21. “On My Way Home” – Songs: Ohia

Because The End is Really The Beginning

I used to never ever ever close my eyes at a gig. I have attended tens of thousands of concerts – and I am positive that the live music experience is equal parts hearing and seeing. Why would I choose to limit my experience and shut my eyes?

(I am certain that regardless of advancements in technology and connectivity, people will continue to seek out in-the-flesh performances; momentary, unreplicatable, multi-sensory experiences. It’s not the same as listening to an album on vinyl or watching a performance on Youtube. But I digress.)

My greatest music discovery of 2019, The Comet is Coming, played one of my favourite London venues, Shepherd’s Bush Empire, in early December. I closed my eyes many times to their intense, bombastic music, played with passion and precision masquerading as improvisation. When my eyes were open, they were often misty. The music was evocative, definitely, but I was reacting emotionally because my best friend Desmond was with me and the gig felt like the culmination of an unpredictable, unprecedented and emotional year together. I’ve had to lean on my friends for support more than any previous year and Des has been my #1 supporter.

As weird as 2019 has been, I’m 100% better for all of it. Bring on 2020 with more and better weirdness and emotions. The best Josh is coming. My eyes may be closed at points yet I’m more open than ever.

For a while I’ve been making a mental list of “Robot Detection Songs”; songs you could play for a suspected robot and, if they didn’t have an emotional response, you’d know that they were impersonating a human. Spirit of the West’s “If Venice is Sinking” is on that list. I don’t remotely agree with the religious nature of the lyrics but John Mann’s vocals are so beautiful and the arrangement is so joyous, even a robot might react.

Let’s Go (So We Can Get Back) by Jeff Tweedy | PenguinRandomHouse.com: Books

Let’s Go (So We Can Get Back) by Jeff Tweedy | PenguinRandomHouse.com: Books

Open Again: My Fave Songs of 2018

I listened to lots of new music in 2018. I was pleasantly surprised by new/ refreshed directions by some of my all-time favourite artists (Thom Yorke, The Decemberists, Death Cab) and my good friend Dom Fricot. It was lovely to discover Pinegrove, Dizzy and Sunflowers. Probably my favourite album of the year was Deafheaven’s Ordinary Corrupt Human Love but, as

with every year, there are loads of albums I still need to digest.

Here are my favourite songs of the year, in a purposeful but not preferential order: